I used to keep a journal...every day I would record my thoughts...I was pretty dedicated to this task...so much so that I did not even see it as a task..rather a release..and necessary..recording our thoughts is something personal to us...it allows us to be only as honest as we can be with ourself..and if we cannot be honest with ourself..we truly will never be honest with others..it starts with you...or in my case...ME...I must start with myself..self improvement..self exploration ..whatever I decide to call it...it begins with figuring out who I am...who am I and who do I want to be..young adulthood is a test of this...things will change...things will always and forever being changing around us, within us...but how do we learn to become a grounded individual...so astutely aware of who we are at our core, that we not only accept change, but we grow from it, and allow it to only benefit who we are continually becoming. I see myself as never a finished product, for when we believe we are "done"; the best person we can be, we become complacent. I want to, if nothing else, always be challenging myself to improve. I want to take this time, this period in my life, my "early 20's" to truly figure out who I am becoming, who I want to be. Some people argue that the past is the past and we need to let it go, and to some degree I agree. To live in the past is to never be looking towards the future and that is not the way I want to go through life. But I believe the past is the key to our present and future. Every choice we make, every decision, every day plays a part in the life we lead. Who we are today is effected by who we were yesterday and 10 years ago...
I used to keep a journal..and then somewhere along the way I stopped...somehow what used to come naturally to me ...become a task...it became like homework..and I no longer was motivated to write...but now I am here..I am 22 years old..I am starting a new stage of my life....and I want to learn what this means..I want to play an active role in who I am and who I become...I want to make choices, I do not want choices to make me....I want to know who I am...to myself..how I see me...and what I need to change...this is why I write.
